24/7

nothing more to say. you teach all day and then go to matches that last until 7.00ish, bringing the day to a 12-hour length. you come home, gobble some junk b/c you haven't eaten lunch since 11.00a.m.- only in schools. finally, you drift off in a haze in the chair. a vicious cycle. why i do it? well, the work part is the work part and at this point there's no career changing for me. the tennis part? i really don't know. the kick from competition. the satisfaction from a good win. the desolation from a bad loss (yesterday).

i was listening to audiodharma last night on the topic of Loving/Kindness. what struck me most was his use of the term "Bed stand Buddhist". isn't that great? armchair coach. backseat driver. Monday-morning quarterback. one who pretends but doesn't do. it all goes back to Yoda. "Do or do not. There is not try." I still think it's the best quote of all time. If you want to be a cyclist, Cycle. don't elaborate or contemplate the bike. Be the bike. if you fashion yourself a Buddhist, practice Buddhism. Don't just read about it. Duh, you the audience can get the point, but a great point it is. Buddhism is so much about slowing down, but when I find myself superbusy like this week, good practice is as far as away from me as i can imagine. disappointing.